Attack Of The Clones: The Last Rays of Light

With one month down and The Phantom Menace now behind us, I settled in to re-watch Star Wars Attack of the Clones yesterday afternoon. It had been a little while since I had seen this one and in some ways it felt like I was watching it again for the first time.

When it first premiered in May of 2002 I was in the soaring upswing of my complete and utter adoration/fascination/obsession of all things wildly romantic – I was about to be 13 and dramatic flair was my middle name. All these years later I’ve never really come down off that high of loving impossible romances. Yes, they’re unrealistic ideallic fantasy-dreams that don’t exist in the real world, but there’s still something about them that sucks me in. And at 13 everything seems possible – and plausible – so the more dramatic and impossible the love story, the more I adored it. Needless to say, when episode II hit theaters, I was MESMORIZED.

Attack of the Clones was everything I needed Star Wars to be at that time of my life, it was lush and beautiful, with sweeping scenes of waterfall picnics and sunshine-drenched lake houses. Padme’s clothes were to-die-for and the addition of a purple lightsaber just was sheer perfection. Add to that, Anakin was suddenly attractive – something I didn’t even know to expect – and he was in love with Padme and it was a forbidden love, which just made it all the better! My young heart beat to the tune of the Anidala theme my friends, and I never looked back. I was a shipper before I knew knew what shipping was and for me this installment was a love story plain and simple, and love stories were my bread and butter.

But watching it now almost twenty years later, what really struck me this time first and foremost wasn’t the actual love story –although it is still epic – but rather Anakin’s attitude during the first half of the film. When I think of Ani now, having seen the entire saga, I often picture the Jedi Knight in episode III, the closed-off, near-drowning man who can’t find the light to save himself. Or maybe the happy little boy winning the big pod-race and believing that all his dreams will come true. But this Anakin, this teenaged AOTC Anakin, struck me this time around as such a forgotten gem of a person. He comes across as sullen and argumentative and is therefore automatically panned as being a classic teenage whiner but that’s only when he’s in the company of Jedi. He’s spent the last ten years being told to contain his nature, to submit to the Jedi’s way of life and for someone who is so emotionally mature and expressive, it’s no wonder he chafes at such restrictive and harmful instruction. But the moment Padme enters his life again, all that meaningless chatter and chastisement visibly melt away and he is again that boy from the desert who can’t help but speak the truth.

“Ani? My goodness, you’ve grown.” — Padme Amidala
“So have you, grown more beautiful…” — Anakin Skywalker

Anakin has always been portrayed as highly emotive, especially in the previous film, what he thinks and feels he says, and he has no qualms about expressing to someone that they’re important to him. His honesty and openness are originally commendable but now set against the restrictive nature of the Jedi code – with their aversion to attachment and expression of emotions – is suddenly portrayed as wrong as we see it that way as well. He is chided and ridiculed by Obi-Wan for his display of obvious feelings, but it’s not in Anakin to lie. Not yet. There is still too much of his mother in him, too much of her teachings and love and wisdom to be beaten down completely by dogmatic rhetoric.

That’s why very time Anakin is with Padme he finds himself speaking his most inner absolute truths – things that most people would blush at or feel too embarrassed to speak aloud. Because she is not Jedi, and because he knows that somehow she understand him and he needs her to know the truth while he can still say it. He explains his love for her, his admiration and respect for Obi-Wan as well as the crippling frustrations with his Jedi training. It’s like he cannot help himself. Every time he speaks to her, the truth overwhelms him. After ten years of being encouraged to lock his old self away, and not give in to emotion or his own instincts, the real Anakin is dying to be recognized, to be understood. Even at his darkest, he hides nothing.  It’s incredibly beautiful to watch, but painful at the same time. Painful because honesty is actually frightening for most people and because it’s as if Anakin’s spirit is trying to purge itself of the last ten years of repressed emotion. He’s unconsciously attempting to shake off the shackles of Jedi mentality, but it’s too late, he’s completely surrounded, his fate is already sealed, and this is the last time we truly get to see Anakin as he was before. His time as Anakin Skywalker is fading fast, and it’s almost like some part of him knows it.

“From the moment I met you, all those years ago, not a day has gone by when I haven’t thought of you. And now that I’m with you again… I’m in agony. The closer I get to you, the worse it gets. The thought of not being with you — I can’t breathe.” –Anakin Skywalker

So after watching AOTC again for what is probably the hundredth time, what I see now is a boy who hasn’t yet been broken. What is often read as awkward and argumentative behavior, is in reality just Ani desperately pushing back against the Jedi’s restrictive nature and seeing Padme again immediately reverts him to his old self. He speaks the truth to her with no shame hampering him and for a short time becomes the person he wants most to be — someone capable of great deeds, and great emotions. Ultimately, he is still the Anakin we met on Tattooine, he is still Shmi’s son – but now time is running out, and the Anakin we know and love is coming nearer and nearer his final fatal destiny.


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8 thoughts on “Attack Of The Clones: The Last Rays of Light

  1. I really like Hayden Christensen, I’ll get that right out there. Not just because he’s gorgeous (haha) but because I actually felt like he really understood Anakin Skywalker and portrayed him just right. I know this is an unpopular opinion, but I think he nailed it. And part of the appeal of Anakin during this film is his youthfulness and vulnerability. For me, the time Anakin spends with Padme is so intense at times it almost feels like you’re spying on two people holding back their desire for each other because they’re not allowed to show it. It made me feel a little uncomfortable to see Anakin being so open with Padme about his feelings because most people wouldn’t go there. Most people are quite happy being miserable because they are too afraid to let their feelings become known. Anakin is actually the type of character you can easily adore because of this one fundamental trait of his personality. He doesn’t hold back, he goes all in and I think it’s rare to see a male character in such a vulnerable position. And it continues right throughout his life, even unto the dark side when he becomes Vader – he embraces his destiny and his hatred (just like his love) is unmistakable and raw and really in your face. Perhaps because of this, he became such a powerful enforcer of the dark side, just as he would have made the best Jedi had things turned out differently. I think fans focused way too much on the bad stuff in the prequel movies and forgot about how this love story is actually one of the best I’ve ever seen on film, particularly in a sci-fi movie! I just love it to pieces 🙂

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    1. Perfectly said! And I’m right there with you, Hayden portrayed Anakin PERFECTLY! I don’t get all the backlash against him because he actually did an amazing job, he made you really care about Ani and there was such a well-crafted and palpable duality to his portrayal which was exactly what was needed!

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  2. Brilliant article. So well written.
    I don’t understand all of the hate for the prequels and latest sequels.
    Nice to read someone who likes the films as much as me and looks deeper into them. Looking forward to future articles

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    1. Thank you so very much!!! I love all the Star Wars films and I’m having so much fun exploring them and breaking them down each month counting down to Episode IX! 😀😊


  3. Very well said. Most people dislike Anakin heartily, especially in AotC. They say he’s whiny and immature. But I believe, as you do, that he’s chafing against a Code that goes against his very nature. He’s constantly being picked on, although the Jedi, Obi-Wan most of all, are supposed to know that he’s the Chosen One. Nobody cares to let him display his true self, except for Padmé. She believes in his good nature right until her very last words.
    I guess the trouble with Star Wars is that the audience too easily breaks the saga down to “it’s just for children” and “it’s about good and evil”. No, it’s very dramatic and tragic and realistic, and the topic is Love and War. (Any kind of love, that’s why it’s about family.) But with the good-against-evil idea, people search for a scapegoat and easily choose to blame Anakin. A little more empathy could do wonders. Lucas never tried to excuse him, but to make him more understandable, and the world he had come from. Luke had to retire to Ahch-To to realize that the Old Republic hadn’t been the sunshine and roses Obi-Wan had described. He and his friends had tried to restore the past, but the past was very flawed. It’s up to the next generation to keep the good and get rid of the bad, and make a better world.

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  4. Rereading this post, I would add something: Anakin can still say the truth, but he has already unlearned how to cry and to honestly grieve. On his mother’s grave, the most natural reaction would have been tears. But there wasn’t a single one.


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